Thinking About The Year Coming to an End

   I was thinking about all of the people that I have had the pleasure of meeting. Some have moved on to greener pastures, others have just moved on. I am very thankful for the people that are still in my life and they have help me to learn more about myself.  It was not an easy process, because some of the things that I have learned surprised me. 

  I have learned that a lot of my passed relationships were not your normal relationship. I have always known that  they were not like the ones you see on t.v.or any where else. I have been on a cool adventure. I hope that in the next year I will learn some more things about myself. 

  One of the thing that I have learned is that I can ask questions an expect an answer. If I do not get the answer that I need I do not have to begin that relationship. I have also learned that if I find that I am not sure about a person I can ask a mutual friend about that person. One of the things that I have learn is that it is ok to have a crush on a person,  That  does not mean that I am being a hoe, all it means is that I am still attracted to good looking men. 

  I have learned that I do not have to label myself just to make someone-else feel better. I can choose to label myself, but I do not have to stay in the box that other people put me in. I claim the labels of Little & Submissive.  No-one can call me another label unless I give them permission to do so. There is one man that gave me a label that I have claimed, but one he can call me that
 ( chocolate cherub ) that will always be his name for me. I do not want any one else to call me that. That was Mr.E's pet name for me. Now we are long distance friends. My new play partner calls me Dee which is common, he does one thing that is new to me. He likes to kiss me on my forehead. That is a sign of possession,which I happen to like. When I am with Mr.S I know that it is a temporary fix, it will come to an end but for now I will enjoy it. I hope that we will have a wonderful time together.

Thankful for my FOC.

I have not said anything about a very special group of people that are a blessing to me. I don't have many friends where I live. I can count them on one hand. I am very grateful for them. But there is a wonderful group of people that understand me and they have been a blessing to me. When I am with them I don't have to be concerned about the way I talk or that I don't have money like they do. I am loved and taken care of. I am told that I matter and no-one is going to reject me because I am broke. My FOC wants me there with them. I am so happy and safe. They make me feel better about myself and my situation. To me there is nothing better than to be told that I matter.

The beginning of a New Year 2016

I am looking forward to having a wonderful adventure in the coming year. I am working to get all of my medical issues taken care of. Then I want to work on finding a D D for my little. It is a matter of being seen as well as talking to people and playing too

I know that my play partner can not give me what I need. He is doing ok for now. While I am looking and learning,I must keep up with my FOC and my blogs. This is a wonderful way to keep an eye on my progress. I can also keep track of my weight loss and my exercise goals. I need to be held accountable for my actions. 

I will continue to work on my crocheting. I will finish the projects that I have started by February 28,2016. I will also do a better job of cleaning the house.

These are a few things that I can and will work on, I will be posting more.

This is all for now. Good night and sweet dreams.

Life in my corner of the world!!

This is a new beginning for me. I have tried to keep a blog for years. But I forgetting that I have a blog to write about the things that are on my mind. I do not mind if no one reads it. I know that it is the end of the year is coming in 3 weeks. I am going to try to write more. Here is my starting blog...lol

  I have been trying to get my health problems taken cafe of, but it is a pain in my backside. I had to get a new doctor. That was the easy part. Now I just have to get all of it fixed. I have had a lot of testing done some I would have passed on ...lol

 They have looked in places that should never see the light of day. But ever thing came out just fine. I have had a new MRI done, so soon I will be going to see a neurosurgeon to repair or replace my shunt. I am try to get Achilles tendon to repair it self by wearing a boot and a lift in one shoe. I do not want to have surgery on my ankles ( Bilateral Achilles tendinitis) , is a real bitch to deal with. I miss being able to walk ,dance and moving around with out a cane. I want to go to the dentist to get my teeth pulled then on to dentures.

  I have been blessed to be in remission since 2006, I pray that the cancer will not come back. There has been so many things that have happen, some have been good and others not so good. I am very happy to have been able to see another year.  I hope that 2016 will be as good or better. There is still so much to learn about myself. I will alk about that in another post.

My Question Is, What Do You Call Your Hidden Desires?

For Many years we have been asking, How does it feel?

Lets get it straight, I am not asking about Love.

I am asking about the right kind of Sex.

Not the stuff you get from Mr.Rightnow.

I am talking about The kind you get get from Mr. Hot damn.

We all know that there is that one person that could get you to do things that you only read about in a bad romance.

I can say that there has been only a couple of people who could make my blood race like that.

When you learn about the things that you keep hidden in you mind, you long that the person who can and will releaseyour hidden pleasures.

To tell the truth it will have many names. But in the end what you call it is up to you.

Some will call it roleplay, S&M, B&D, no matter what you call it. In truth it is about the end results.



Joy of Love

Joy flows in the heart of those that hold Love in their hearts.

It is not the Love of money or things.



It is the Love of another that brings Joy to your Heart.

It is the sound of that persons voice or the laughter that comes with ease.

That Joy can come from a touch of a hand or the scent of that person when you are near them.

The Joy of Love is a soft breeze that reaches the hollow part of your heart as well as your soul.

That Joy should never be held to tight, it is meant to be shared.

So open you heart and let the Joy of Love flow.